I’m aware of the fact that a small handful of times, always during “cocktail hour”, that I have told someone I know, whether directly or indirectly, about my blog. I realize that they may know I’m talking about them or someone they know. I know that although I keep my real identity out of this and never give any names unless it’s a generic first name or give out anything too specific like where they live, that once you put yourself out there, it’s out there for life. And I would like to say that, NOT A SINGLE SHIT IS GIVEN.
Here’s the thing; I use this blog as a diary and as a way for other people to know that they are not the only ones who go through some of the same things I have in the past or present and also, to share some funny dating horror stories. They can judge and talk shit all they want. I’m still a good person, I’m still a good Mommy (my son is sweet as can be and developmentally surpasses where he’s supposed to be at his age) and I’m happier than most with my life. Sure, I have issues, but so does everyone else. Sure, I’ve done dumb shit, but so have they. They may act like they’re so great and everything is perfect, but I think we all know better. In fact, did you know that the people who make it a point to show everyone how perfect their life is and has been are the ones who are the worst off and have the most issues? Yuppers! It’s true. They’re insecure and require making others feel a little bad inside to make themselves feel good. They may not always realize that though. I’d like to think that I’m very self aware and try to be conscience of my actions toward others. Not that I always am, but the effort is there the majority of the time.
“Judge not, lest ye be judged.” Or something like that.
Yes, I too make comments about obnoxious little shits or what not. We can all be a little judge-y at times and if you say you’re not, you’re lying. I try to see things from others’ point of view. I really do. I’d rather vent on here than say something to someone’s face whilst unbeknownst to me they’re going through financial trouble or their wife is getting ready to leave them or something. However, I will stand up for myself and say something to their face if I need to. When I was younger I was a total push over and bullied, but now you better watch your ass if you try and pull that crap with me.
I will say this, I’m much harder on myself than I should be and in my head see things as worse than they are and it comes out in my writing. I overanalyze to a fault. Writing does help me work through those things. Sometimes we need a hard slap in the face with a chair to get our shit together. Whether we give it to ourselves or someone else does it.
My point is, I know what I’m doing. Mistakes aside I still am aware of all things. So please, keep reading. I LOVE seeing the high stats and I truly hope this makes you feel better about yourself.